I’ve always enforced a lot of rules on myself. I must do XYZ to achieve my goal. I must be the first, the best, the boldest, and the kindest. I must do the good for someone else and put myself second. I must wash my hands after touching anything even a little dirty and of course, I shouldn’t talk on my cell phone while attempting to cross the a NYC street.
While some of these mandates I should still enforce (I don’t want to get hit by a bus anytime son), lately, I’ve been allowing myself to break a few of these restrictions.
Maybe it’s because I’m traveling along this journey with an open heart and an open mind, or possibly, I’m just changing – but I’ve been thinking more out-of-the-box thanI have in a very long time.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m going to be this age once in my life. There is no going back three months ago, three years ago, or three seconds ago. Today, in this instant, in this feeling, in this moment is my existence. And if I choose to go off of my straight-and-narrow path to try a different adventure I never thought I’d be capable of doing, so be it. If I happen to get hurt along the way or wonder why I made the choice I made – then I’ll deal with that situation as it comes.
I know that I’m a confident, smart, and self-sufficent lady who knows what is best for her, and if I have the gumption to blaze a new trail and take a leap of faith – I know there will always be something to help me through anything that crosses me.
So, in celebration of being a newly-born rebel, here are some of the things that I’m telling myself it is just alright to do, if I so please (keep in mind, I haven’t done all of these, but I just might):
Thou shall not kiss on the very first date
-Sure, he’s just a friend. Yep, he’ll never be more. Oh my, he’s cute. I think I’ll kiss him. Maybe more than once.
Thou shall not gain five pounds and go to the gym five-times-a-week
-Chinese food for the second night in a row? Super greasy? Yum. I’ll take two eggrolls, please.
Thou shall not tell little white lies
-How much is that puppy in the window? The one with the curly hair and cute little bark? Can I afford him? No. Will I pretend like I can and lead the salesperson on, just so I can snuggle up with him? Yep.
Thou shall save more money and not treat myself
-Hmmm. Sample sale on fifth? Kate Spade bags? They do accept credit cards? I think I’ll be taking my lunch break early today.
Thou shall not flirt to get my way
-Man, oh man, I spent way too much money last night. He’s kinda cute. Looks like he needs some company. Maybe if he sees these new jeans, he’ll buy me a drink. Then, me and the girlfriends can ditch ‘em. (Sorry dudes!)
Thou shall not wear super high heels
-Are my feet going to hurt all night long? Will I have to lean up against something at nearly every place I go to? But will my legs look super sexy all night long? Yup.
Thou shall not have relations out of relationship-lock
-I may get attached to him, but if I can try having a friends-with-benefits with someone whom I trust and care about deeply, I should. Right? I think so.
Thou shall not leave makeup on and go to bed
-I will probably wake up with more zits than I went to bed with, but sometimes, washing my face just seems like so much trouble.
Thou shall be super critical of everything I do
-Instead of thinking another gal is better, I think paying some compliments to myself and to my friends (just to make them happy) is a little healthier
Thou shall not think in terms of end-all-be-all or never-ever
-Embracing ideas and thoughts that encourage fear or self-defeating actions are not healthy. So instead, I’ll think in terms of the here-and-the-now
Thou shall not drink that extra glass of wine
-Though my head will definitely be feeling the pain tomorrow, so what if I happen to down another sip of grapey-red-goodness?
Thou shall not forgive myself
-We all make mistakes. And I’m sure I’ll make more than a few here and there, but at the end of the day, I have to love myself. With and without those flaws.
Thou shall not stay up late writing…again
Thou shall not live my life just as I think I should, but with rules to keep me safe and protected.
-Nope, instead it is on my terms. Without limits. Just living.